During the last year we have several ‘worst days of our lives’. The day we found out we had a tumour. The day of surgery. The day we found out it was the worst kind of tumour. The day in July when Andy had a seizure and was hospitalized. The day we found out his back was broken.
But this past Thursday, by far, was the worst worst day.
Andy hasn’t been doing extremely well the last couple of weeks. He has been getting weaker and weaker, he’s been dropping weight, the ‘regular’ symptoms we’ve had, like the difficulties speaking and word finding have been getting worse, and we’ve had a few other new symptoms crop up like a slight loss in hearing and blurry vision. We neglected to inform the masses because we wanted to wait for the MRI results. Our fears of the worst were realized when we met with oncology and they delivered the news.
The tumour has grown again and our lab results are still not favourable. There is no possibility of surgery. Andy’s body cannot handle any more chemo. There is no other chemo to be tried. Any further treatment would do more harm than good, as odd is that is to say.
This is the end of our fight.
They have given Andy about two to three months to live. About half of that, there is a good chance he will be incoherent and asleep. We’ve been told this should be a painless and relatively quick death, for this we are thankful.
Believe it or not, we are in relatively good spirits. What else can we do? We have decided to make the most of our every day. We plan on spending every waking moment together, visiting with our family and friends, reminiscing and laughing. Creating some new and wonderful memories.
We have shared this information with our closest circle, and there are a few other people we would liked to have told this to in person, but the number is too great and we just wanted to get it out there. We apologize for delivering this news so callously and coldly in this format but this is the best vehicle to get the news to everyone.
As always, thank you so much for your love and support. We hope to hear from as many of you as possible and hopefully we will be able to see a lot of you as well.
With a tremendous amount of love,